And after passing yet another mangy, sick, injured and diseased street dog, Stephen commented, “I think we should support the pound when we’re back in the US. I didn’t realize the good work they do.”
with bells on.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nJ4D9jzGPU0
encouraged.
Our afternoons rarely go as planned.
In an attempt to encourage cleanliness, we bought a new trash can for our yard this weekend. The children leave a mess regularly, and our occasional afternoon clean up couldn’t keep up. And though there is a public trash can approximately three yards from our gate, we thought it was challenging to blame them if we didn’t provide a solution.
So we had a clean up party this afternoon. We brought the trash can out and planned to pick up trash, sweep the porch area, and head back inside. We had guests coming at seven, dinner to cook, snacks to prepare, and showers to be had.
But if nothing more, relationships without communication teach you a great deal of patience and flexibility.
And our half hour clean up turned into about three hours:
– We picked up trash, but also had to teach that the cards you still plan to use should not go into the trash can. The bag stays in the trash can. The trash goes in the bag, not under it. The lid is not a shield to be used in fighting matches. And yes, the motorbike is still off limits for touching.
– The pencil writings, crayon scribbles, and flower smears on our house are scrubbed off again. Well, all except one…
– Sweeping turned into breaking the broom and needing a new one, to be purchased at the store just down the way. Oh, but while Stephen is gone, Kelli is a perfect human jungle gym.
– As potted plants are moved for sweeping a ginormous ant nest is discovered just feet from our front door; something Kelli will not be able to sleep with. Ant chalk and ant spray are used in abundance, requiring the kids to be distracted on the the other side of the yard and encouraged to breathe the non-chemical air. Laughter ensues.
– Cilantro is planted for the third time, and is a community effort as usual–each child throws in a few seeds, many are on the floor.
– A visitor arrives to the neighborhood who knows English and Burmese, so Stephen is summoned for the conversation. We have a few moments to understand each other! We learn they’ve lost the key we gave them and feel terrible, but really appreciate us letting the kids play and allowing them to hide behind our house. We can communicate welcome and again reiterate the process of the garden: we work together, you can have the harvest! They are excited for the seeds we purchased this weekend, and a group is called over to help weed.
– A group comes over the to the yard and begins preparing the soil. The new trashcan becomes a bucket to transport weeds over the community; the weeds were laid down to help with the flooding and mud due to rainy season. The process of weeding everything and carting weeds takes nearly two hours. And if I may say, the young girls were amazing! There were a few twelve or thirteen year olds faithfully hoeing the weeds, and carting the bucket across the road loaded up on their shoulders.
– A little girl sneaks behind the back of the house to pee, somewhere in that little area where six people were hiding last week?! Hilarious.
And at the end of it all, we were so encouraged. More and more of the community are speaking with us, or attempting to. We are beginning to work together and to learn from each other. I’m continually amazed at how few names we know and yet how much time we spend playing games with them, cleaning up their messes, talking about them, praying for how to love them well, and taking each opportunity as it comes.
And the encouragement is welcomed.
baby doll.
In an effort to pull ourselves together, we were cleaning out some things in our office today. The last team left behind many toys, games, and small gifts to donate, and they needed to be sorted through and divvied up. And amidst the pile, there was a baby doll with dark hair and dark eyes.
As I sorted the items with another staff member, we decided the doll should go to Sonya, our boss. Her daughter is just over two, and has just one doll that was purchased here locally–which, in truth, means it’s cheaply made and looks a little creepy. This new baby doll was so lovely, and we thought her daughter would love it and be truly thankful for it.
I put the doll in a plastic bag with a few other things and took it home in my bike basket, planning to deliver it at our bible study tonight. I didn’t think much of it as I pulled it out of the basket at home to bring it inside.
One of the little neighbor girls ran up to give me a hug, and peered toward the bag with interest. I wish I had captured the moment her eyes and brain connected the vague image of the baby doll through the plastic bag.
She gleamed.
Her shoulders lifted, her mouth dropped a little, and her eyes sparkled. She knew instantly what it was and how beautiful it was.
I felt so bad taking it inside, particularly as she stood at the door and watched where I set it down. She kept saying the same word in Burmese as she looked at it, as if it had captured her.
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I’ve seen one doll among the girls across the street, and I distinctly remember it. I ran into a little girl as I turned the corner while walking back from the store. She instantly held up her doll and shoved it into my face with pride; and it scared me. Literally scared me.
It was a head–a doll head that lacked all of her hair, leaving little holes in systematic patterns. And the head had affectionately been placed on a stick that formed the body of the doll.
It instantly reminded me of Sid’s created toys in Toy Story.
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And so we began dreaming: what if we could have a community toy box, complete with dark-haired dolls, a few tough trucks, colorful balls and blocks? We’re still fleshing out the details, and honestly, praying.
This might be too honest–perhaps revealing how antisocial my core is; and how challenging it is for me to let anyone in or let myself out–but I think the neighbors across the street are my dearest friends here right now. Their smiles and hugs, the depth of their eyes, the lines on their hands: they are teaching me daily. The children are putting flesh on verses, theologies, theories, and ideologies that have been read, analyzed, memorized, and lectured, but remained distant; but now are running up to my bicycle and leaving snot marks and tanaka powder on my shirt.
exploring.
big dreams.
Stephen has big dreams that he’s often recounting to me. A number of them revolve around a recording studio, and some day putting his college degree to positive use. And the longer we’re here, the more those dreams capture the music of the oppressed and incorporate the lives of those around us.
His dreams are most often overwhelming to me. We’ve just arrived here, and it seems difficult to dream of another step ahead of us. I also get caught up in the practicalities of it all; that we don’t have $4000 to purchase the microphone you’d need, or even $300 for the “cheaper” one.
I’m learning, and really praying, for ways to be more of an encouragement to these dreams rather than simply a realist.
We all know that realism is really just pessimism with a better name anyway.
Here is the current glass that is just over the half mark: there is a company, Sweetwater, that sells music and recording gear. They have a monthly giveaway that Stephen keeps his eye on. September’s giveaway is a package of microphones worth $27,000–and he’s excited. He’s already registered–well, his dad has since you have to be stateside–and hoping. His mind is already turning with the possibilities this could hold.
So I’ve started praying he might win this, and I was wondering if you could, too.
And he would like to know if any of you would be willing to go register for the microphone package with a willingness to give it away 🙂
Here’s to dreaming big.
so we gave them oranges.
We were busy cleaning up our house today–quite a way to spend the day off–and suddenly heard our gate opening and shouting in the yard. We ran to the window to find some our neighbors shouting between each other and running around frantically.
Something was happening. Or as we soon learned, someone was coming.
And for the next little while, we had six guests hiding behind our house. There is a small walkway that goes past our water tank and behind the house along the drainage canal.
We brought them a bowl of oranges.
There were so many things to communicate: You are welcome here; stay as long as you need. Is there something we can do to help? What is happening? Who is coming? Can I get you anything? What do I do while you hide?
So we gave them oranges.
I snuck out the backdoor and simply bent down to give them a bowl full of little oranges, attempting to communicate friendship, welcome, support, encouragement, and love in one fell swoop. One little bowl of oranges.
I suppose the story was really told in their faces.
The older woman, maybe in her seventies or eighties–she looked scared.
And the men–they hung their heads; in embarrassment, it seemed.
And the teenage girls, who have spent many an afternoon playing in our yard, just brightened at the oranges.
The gate was left shut, and after some time everyone came out from hiding. They thanked us and left.
As we were preparing to move to Thailand, someone shared a story with us about a missionary who was living in a village and often welcomed the locals into her home. People were often visiting, and one day a young girl came to simply sit with her. The girl explained that for everyone in the village, this was their favorite place to be because it was peaceful.
We have prayed that over our house: that our house would be a place of peace and safety. That the Lord’s presence would be felt here; that in some way it might be a sanctuary.
Maybe a sanctuary that provides oranges when necessary.
Later this afternoon, we found a man sleeping on our porch chair. This is a unique situation–there are few adults that will come around the house. They seem hesitant, and much more keen to watch the children from the road.
And we hope that today it might be because he just felt he could sleep peacefully.
keeping it light.
happy world peace day.
Happy World Peace Day!
Yes, that really is a day, and it’s now.
“When we truly discover love, capitalism will not be possible and Marxism will not be necessary.” -Will O’Brien
This quote always makes me think; and somehow fitting for achieving world peace.
lolly pop.
Today was a hard day. Some days are harder than others. Other days I can separate myself from the pain. I can find distractions (work, movies, music, “ministry,” birthdays).
I do this in Thailand and when we lived in the States. Often I am faced with the pain and suffering, and I just move on; I focus on something else.
Today I couldn’t do that.
Yesterday we were able to give out some old clothes. Clothes that other people have discarded and given to us to give to the “less fortunate.” We had huge piles of velour shirts, outdated styles, jeans with holes in them, and really, clothes we think we are too good to wear. We set up these piles of clothes in the street, and as soon as people noticed what was happening they came running. That was a hard moment to see people in their state of survival running after old clothes.
A then we saw one of the women modeling around and dancing in her new, our old shirt. Then the kids went to change into their “new” clothes, and we got to see them play and celebrating this gift.
The part I couldn’t ignore was this morning. A mother we have come to know was out gardening our weeds, and she looked up at us smiling, and without words communicated to us that she didn’t get a new shirt. I then remembered that I didn’t see her yesterday when we were giving out clothes. And although she was smiling, I could notice the sadness in her eyes. I got frustrated at the situation; why are things so unfair for her?
I love to see Kelli’s face when I get to take her to Target and let her buy a new shirt or sweater, and this woman has never been able to shop like this. Why?
And for some reason yesterday she wasn’t there to even be able to get a shirt we were basically throwing away. It was hard to see her face and tell her we are out.
I couldn’t move on without that influencing my day.
Following that, I noticed three kids chewing on suckers–blow-pops from America. My first thought was, “How did they get that?” Then it occurred to me that it was our trash.
For my birthday, my sister sent me liquid soap and blow-pops in a huge package of gifts from the States–a lot of fun. But a little of the soap leaked onto the blow pops, and not wanting to have a sucker taste like soap (and really questioning the dangers of ingesting soap), we threw the soapy ones away.
(On a side note, I don’t want you to get the wrong impression of these children, families and people here that dig through the trash. It was hard at first to get used to, but now I see that it is a way of life for many people, especially in this area. It is very humbling to watch, but our trash on many occasions is someone else’s treasure.)
To look up and see a happy child, because today they found something…a treasure, still in the wrapper.
I couldn’t move on without that influencing my day.
As we drove to the refugee camp today, I kept noticing faces for some reason. There were many people walking and for some reason today their faces caught my attention, and I couldn’t help but feel that everyone is hurting. Everyone around us here in Mae Sot is struggling and fighting to survive.
I couldn’t move on without that influencing my day.
Then we got to the refugee camp, where there are over 50,000 people trapped in this very small space. These students have been praying that we could get in with the team to teach hygiene. I was overwhelmed that they were praying so that for a couple hours they could have a visitor and not feel like they are trapped. They could feel like the outside world is not so disconnected.
I couldn’t move on without that influencing my day.
Today is different. For some reason today is different, and although the pain and suffering is always there–in Arkansas, Tennessee, Oklahoma and Mae Sot; today I didn’t distract myself, and I couldn’t move on without that influencing me.
I became frustrated and fed up with this world and all the pain and suffering in it.
I have always heard people wanting Jesus to come back soon, and honestly I have had a problem with this. In my self-centered heart ,I always felt that I was’t ready for that moment because of my lack of experiences in this world. Today, looking around for the first time in my life I wanted Jesus to come back and end all the suffering. I want there to be no more tears. I want these women to not have to worry about having enough clothes, food, water, or shelter. I want these kids to not have to dig through the trash to find treasures. I want all the faces I saw today–hiding from the government, working for practically no pay, parents on the run to protect their family–to experience peace. I want those students trapped in the refugee camp to experience freedom.
Today I couldn’t move on without it influencing me.
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